The Hardest Thing

It's been 5 days since Jared was admitted at the hospital. This morning, the doctor suggested I try not to breastfeed him, just to see if his tummy condition will improve. It's the last option and it's with a heavy heart that I agreed to it. We've already controlled his diet (he eats just rice, oatmeal and cereal), the doctor changed his meds 3x already and the lab tests did not yield anything: no amoeba, no infection.

I'm at the hospital lounge and from here, I can hear my baby crying in the room. Inconsolable.

To hear him cry and beg for milk, knowing that he longs for mommy's milk and all the comfort that it brings, is truly heartbreaking.